Being Aspie and Exploring Your Sexuality Publicly: Doing It For Slut Support Reasons

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You know what's the toughest thing about being an artist?
Possessing a light bulb moment when your interests in work ironically makes you seriously horny.

So for the past few weeks I've been questioning sex, gender and my own struggles being an Aspie. Thus, this has all gone into a huge mental blender and may explain why I'm going to post a picture of my... *ahem* Excitement. This feels like a trilogy of posts about this issue. This being the second and cat calling being the inaugural. But after this post, it's going to be hard to do an encore... No pun. 

It's no secret that I imagine the internet hates everyone. Including itself. The double edged sword called 'Freedom of speech' means we are allowed to be vocal about things we love and of course dislike however to call for something to cease... Isn't that censorship?

So... I'm going to post a picture of my ejaculation. And for once it's not about being an artist and upsetting people. It's because I'm fed up of being told to be myself by society and then censored. In fact I'm betting the picture gets pulled. I actually hope it doesn't. I hope whoever gets upset by the picture at least reads this blog post, supports those mentioned posts.

On a personal note I can't stress how confusing and alien the internet can make a person. As mentioned before being someone who struggles with social skills is bad enough but God help you if you add sexuality into the mix.
On some many different angles I have NO idea why the internet is upset about Kim Kardashian's arse. Nor do I care. I'm simply mentioning her to mention people who actually do things for a living.
Am I right in thinking this woman is famous for ONLY being attractive and rich? Really? K.
I really do have an issue (I guess it's not really her fault but the society we live in where you can be loved for doing fuck all or being stupid or both) people saying 'yay team Kardashian! She's got a massive arse and it's sexy' yet when a big beautiful confident woman is in the public spot light like reality TV personality Gemma Collins goes onto another reality show she becomes Jewish and the internet becomes Aryans.

http://www.aceshowbiz.com/images/wennpic/gemma-collins-uk-premiere-katy-perry-part-of-me-01.jpg

Apparently Gemma had a number of offensive tweets about her weight and short appearance in I'm a celebrity get me out of here. The irony of the show being called that to me is another story but considering this is the same internet who mostly was in uproar about cat calling in New York City really cannot have it both ways.
What I want to get across generally in this blog is I can be playful and have fun at you providing you do the same with me. As we try to find the difference between banter and being an offensive arguing knob head.
But when we cannot support women and their right to be themselves... And then say all men are frightening when they cat call confuses the shit out of me.

Understand: feminist beliefs are not the same. Like mental illness isn't the same. Like being an Aspie isn't. Nor is cat calling. 

When porn star James Deen posted what stand up comic and writer Jenn Tisdale called an 'open cat call to the internet' it seemed a large amount of women couldn't fap their tits at the Jew fast enough.

See there's my humour again. James openly jokes about being Jewish and women equal boobs. See the difference between trying to be funny and actually being a CUNT?

With that being said about Deen's cat call it was Tisdale who answered and the two made a video. A porn video.
Which I've seen.
Which brings us to this. Click to be grossed out by spunk. http://imgur.com/egBcRSe

Now it's cigarettes, phone numbers and taxi time... One question still remains. Despite having answered it at the beginning... Why?

Well the spunk is support for an fellow artist and kinda like applauding the work she and the porn star did. Also Jenn herself says she'd like to use the experience with Deen to open up new angles in her work as a writer and as a stand up.
I think people don't realize how much you show to the world as an artist. So there's that.

And then there's the goddamn fucking internet trolls.

Now I would be a hypocrite to say "shut your fucking mouths" and "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything" but a; I would be censoring and denying the freedom of speech I love so much and b; as an performing artist I understand some people constructive criticize which in itself could be seen as helpful or hurtful or both.
But maybe it's the weird feminist in me that is outraged by comments by trolls such as 'her voice (pre-sex and during) is annoying', 'she was in a relationship! What a slut' she was in a open relationship so to me not only is this an attempt to slut shame but also unaware some people enjoy non monogamy. Get over it.
They insult her body, Deen's choice, the scene itself. Blah blah blah.

Lately I've thought of the internet as a war of the sexes. That in itself could feel alienating to those who don't class themselves a gender. So now I think the internet is at a war against itself about almost everything. I dare you to find a thing online which is split by an percentage of people who love it and people who hate it. Why do you think pro One Direction fans clash with everyone outside if their fandom in mainstream culture? I fail to understand if people don't like something why they try to recruit others to follow suit.
The video Deen and Tisdale create doesn't feel like a porno. Which is great because personally I feel some of the porn is artificial in it's creation. I think Tisdale mentions there has to be something other than sex within the video to make it arousing to me. When looking for partners I need that emotional as well as physical attraction. As an Aspie I need to be forgiven more for my fuck ups and to be able to be myself.
My last sub used to come over and I'd put on YouTube videos of wrestling, mma or shit films on silent and random spotify music. The only difference between when she wasn't here and her being here is I'd have no one to cuddle, tease and grope their tits.

I don't have a favourite porn star anymore (I used to like girls like Sophie Dee, Bailey Jay and Ashley Blue but Dee seems like a gimmick with her accent, Bailey's work is hard to get a hold of and Blue has retired but I'm gonna get her book soon). And for the industry that's a shame as I'm one of these people who needs to feel the need to pay for a product I will always enjoy.
Basically I'm telling you I'm one of these scum bags who doesn't like paying for porn.
I find either the idea for the video is great but the chemistry I don't like or the girl is attractive but there's no chemistry. I feel Tisdale has similar beliefs. No one likes paying for something they are disappointed with.

I think it's important to be brave and to praise those who have the strength to do so rather than pull up what I believe to be 'cards'. J- law's The fappening event? 'bad role model' card. For a moment let's forget she and a number of female celebs were hacked. What if she wanted to share with the one she loves her body? Btw I love how a model (who's name I've ironically forgot) that actually shows off her own pictures gets ignored. Miley Cyrus being outrageous and sexual? 'The children' card. Similar to the role model card where if the internet cannot win an argument cleanly, uses the idea that some parents are lazy and cannot police their children not to view the more sexual outlandish shit Miley does.

Ultimately what Jenn, James and I hope my spunk teaches is simple. As humans we should have the right to be exhibitionists in the right time and places online. I want to live in a world where if I want to post pictures of myself and my partners naked and or in sexual positions, we will be praised arose others and maybe encourage other adults to follow suite and share without fear of losing our jobs. The fact people can lose their jobs and or support for a political stance is fucking ridiculous and dated.If you work high up in child education or government and feel sex and kinky people are a danger to your organization, I feel sorry for you. I really do. A person and their sexual preferences should never compromise life outside of the bedroom.

Or living room.
Or shower.
Bath.
Hotel room.
Car park...