Keyboard Sexist Warriors Vs White Knights: Why being a dick and being as Aspie Man are NOT mutually exclusive

Right off the bat? Happy birthday, Ruby.

It's been a tough time for the love I have for my daughter and I.
Due to 'relationship matters' with adults we haven't been able to hang out as much as I would like.
I would love for us to hang out with family and friends for weekend but it hasn't been possible. Mostly grown ups are to blame. Grown ups fucking suck. But on the flip side my hatred for teenage boys could reach fever pitch at any moment. Then again over the top holier than thou feminists could tempt me to start owning cats.
It's been a funny day going into my daughter's birthday. Family had a huge get together so I mainly hid in my room listening to mental health happy hour (a podcast I highly recommend) and exploring the Guys We Fucked podcast. Guys, This week I did my first ever podcast for my personal blog and I'm hoping it's not long until I do a podcast for this site. So for me the way to learn what I like and can do for others in a podcast depends on what podcasts I listen to and what you guys need in a podcast. The one thing I love about Happy Hour and so far GWF podcast is a similar sense of humour. A reason why I watch, subscribe and bum the fuck out of Watch Girls Play.

One: Humour and cussing. I think they mostly have similar humour and some beliefs that I do.

Two: I find them all attractive. Because I'm vain and visit all women family members, sister, mum, daughter. There are very few men in my life and I doubt I would accept them. Because most men are cunts. These are facts.

Three quickly is playing the games I don't have the balls to play but I need to go back a step. It's the reason why I'm writing this pitch dark at 5 in the morning.

Mankind, I am fucking ANGRY at you.

Listening to GWF and previous posts on here about war of the sexes it's easy to understand why there is such a thing as this war however neither side does anything to calm down the war and tonight... Well that was a super example. I just spend 20 minutes before bed watching properly twitch player Kaceytron and I was horrified at the abuse she was getting in game and in chat.
Now I'm not the type of twitch-er which watching hours on end. I'll watch here and there mainly female streamers. But from what I understand mods are in place, the chat is mostly respectful and friendly. So I'm not sure if this was Troll Thursday or mods were on a coffee break but someone clearly pissed off someone and I started watching slap bang in the middle of a steam voice chat fight. Let's say chat fight in future as it reminds me of cat fight and kind of continues the female linked theme of this post.

As I continue to tell you guys, banter I'm all for. I'm hoping even Happy Hour can back me up on this. Some mother fuckers in the world are too coddamn sensitive. They need Jesus. But the abuse and name calling I heard, maybe it's the father or the literal (only) about the man or even the I love most female non monogamous pervert in me just saw this abuse and it made my blood BOIL. I heard something about sexual acts: listen to me. E-fucking-nough with this men do it, they are awesome women do it they are sluts shit. For real. I'm cunting sick of it. Then again I feel this post should be the random yet fitting end to the Sexes War Trilogy which has hurt my brain for so long. The first two, yes. I'm aspie. I'm awkward and I have no idea how to talk to women. I have to play the Rocky soundtrack to go out and buy milk. I am fucking lonely. But this one? Yes. Of course I'd like to get into a lady's pants as well as her arms as a future result of this post but:

NO WOMEN SHOULS HAVE TO BE ASHAMED OF THEIR SEXUALITY OR FEELINGS ABOUT SEX. WHETHER IT'S MONOGAMOUS, NON, NONE OR OTHER.

EVER.

In fact no one should full stop.
I keep thinking of the time I when to a school in a working class town and I was walking with some male friends. Ahead of us was a lesbian school girl (which is a hot phrase I never thought I would type in a serious context) and my mates took it upon themselves to start throwing insults at this girl. I remember saying that everyone should be free to do and choose their own path in life or words to that effect. The girl turned around after I said this. I thought she was going to punch me but she actually offered me a chewing gum. We've been friends for over 20 years now. Actually she is now a he. But I will still support them. Always. Unless he starts supporting Manchester United. Only cunts support Manchester United. Trust me. I'm an arsenal fan.

And I'm pretty sure only cunts would throw sex based insults at women on the internet. Mainly teen aged boys. I don't believe there is any point of throwing insults at girl gamers. As men surely that's one of the things we look for in the ideal life/long term partner. Similar interests. Now I'm not saying Watch Girls Play, Kaceytron, Ssniperwolf shall be in my bedroom naked already beginning the orge because they couldn't wait for my cock but showing those women respect not just for gaming and being pretty female gamers but are they not human beings? I would love to know how many of these abusive men would be abusive in real life?

For my daughter's and my knuckles sake not many and less that she knows them and lesser that I see them. She is getting to an age where she is starting to learn about sex, boys and how it all 'works'. Gross.
But I don't want her to be let down by men. Like I let down her mum when I was young and stupid. Granted it wasn't anything life changing but I hurt her. And I'm sorry. Any men who tells a woman he will never hurt doesn't grasp the concept of time and clearly isn't breathing. We are imperfect humans. Of course we make mistakes. Only the brave ones apologies for those mistakes.

So if you are thinking I'm going to say sorry for those online male abusive behaviours, I'm not. What would be the point? Most trolls are teen boys. They are still get to become men. I just hope some of them grow up to say sorry and apology.
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It's A War Of The Sexes, never get it blud!

My daughter is nearly 11.

I'm pretty sure she is already aware of the concept of war. The first lines of that song mentions Mike having a child and it asking him what war is. Well weapon!

Since my outpouring of emotions of sexual, social and mental frustration in a post earlier this month I've decided within my aspie mind that everyone in the world hates everyone.

So to 'celebrate' this let's at each side of the coin covered by posts on this blog.
First a friend of mine. An feminist. Yes I am friends with feminists because they realise my token black guy routine in youtube videos is just that. A routine. If course calling everyone either a 'nigga', 'bitch' or 'faggot' doesn't mean I'm a member of Combat 18. It just means I listen to a lot of hip hop music and know street terms, where words have multiple reasons and can be used as nouns or objectives. In the post we discuss the pressures of being a beautiful woman in the eyes of society. Being in constant pain to shaving and of course, cat calling.I have no idea why it's called that. Pussy? Post related. Possibly.

The hairy feminist.

The next blog is myself, the creative director of this place having a good old fashioned rant about my fellow man.
There's a blog out there which seems to date back women's rights a good 40 years for the 'good' of masculine ones. I like mentioning I spent a large number of years being from a single parent family do I am very in favour of feminist rights, however I am curious about being the alpha male who dominates other men, own everything he touches and provides knowledge and things to my family but some of those rules in that blog are fucking ridiculous.
The fact of some less cunty men like myself very counted with the cunty douchbaggy boys in the same basket really pisses me off.
Understand, this rage doesn't come from being a man wanting to get laid due to his curiosity of female rights.
It comes from the days where my mum tried to play my mum and my dad with my upbringing. Fighting and hustling even to this day for everything she beliefs in. I think that's why our fights is something of a verbal Dragon Ball Z of destruction.

 We give a shit in what we believe in. Even if sometimes I get confused thanks to my aspergers or and I'm triggered and decide to head butt the carpet until my head is busted open.
And yes that did happen once, to my embarrassment.
So... Here's the post about that blog. Forgotten the name of the blog.

So what are your thoughts on the seemingly most opinionated of issues of late?
You pro or do you rebuke cat calling? Are you red blooded in your manliness or are you an metro-male?


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Blog Posts Every Black Sheep Should Read Episode 1

I haven't written in a month or two. Then again I don't think I've have got hard coming up to a month, either.

I think either my meds or depression are the reasons for both. Having no desire to mastabute. No desire to do things I enjoy equals no desire to write these blogs.
Which sucks as I love writing. It's the artist in me that wants to create. Shit I'd create everyday if I could. I probably still do create everyday but... It's so hard. More so when you are easily destracted out of your vibe by a shit phone. My phone stopped playing music and now totally crashed ruining this introduction. So fuck it. I might as well ignore the smooth transition I planned in my mind (As it's been forgotten) and get into these blog posts.

One - 'The Give Up', The Actors Voice

                                          The Actor's Voice writer, Bonnie Gillespie

I am an actor. But I'm so much more than that. I have evolved into something that could be game changing. As mentioned my problem is focus, concentration and my illness. My Aspeger's I feel actually helps with creating work that normal people can't really begin to imagine or put together.
So it makes me so angry when people give up. Now I'm not a fan of the machine in the business... But I am an artist. I love my career. I watch, listen and read performing arts every day. In the hope I can find the answer to live the life I want but yet do the work I love.
Some people have just got IT. And not only does it get them work but it gets them more work. One thing I learned at drama school is hard work generates more work. However for some people that's not enough to put up with the trolls and the politics. It's not a super bad ending but I read this, related to it and wish everyone in this story luck with where ever they go next. Cliiiiiiiiick.  

'Why I Went To War' Lily Cade's blog NSFW

Ooooh dear God. I hope this is the last ever time I post an flame war blog post. Due to the irony differences we all have about all issues I fucking well doubt it.
Although I doubt I have to explain the reason why this blog is here and it's main protagonists.
I was looking for people who may fit into what this blog is about: people who do not fit in with every day social. Yet. Some will do but I for one ain't that bothered. Anyway I came across this tweet by trans queer porn star Chelsea Poe:

and also a lot of trans models do Id with the t word and its not problematic at all for them.
— Chelsea Poe (@ChelseaPoe666) June 17, 2014

I thought her avatar was hella cute so I followed. Scrolling though her tweets and checking out and checking out her Tumblr to try find more cute pictures of her I found kind of kick off that RuPaul started. What that was I don't really care. I'm watching the football and I don't watch to go down that rabbit hole. More so if it's about trans people and their rights. Why people can't be free to do what they want anyway is beyond me. Or maybe that is the problem. Too much freedom. See?! This is fucking why I didn't want to open this box!!

 I have to be careful with this... I have an opinion on this... But in terms of gender roles, lesbians and/or transwomen I feel I'd be on egg shells whenever I mention where I stand. My humour is controversial and I just want everyone to be free to do what they want. But I'm sure others stand in the way (Of people doing what they want). Hell have no fury and all that.

 So that's the whole war. I think this is... Stop it, Evan... I'm not posting my 2 pence on this!
The war continues with Chelsea, her fans, Lily and her fans posting points for and against on tumblr but I'm bored of this.
However it's interesting how some rules are argued for and against. Apparently more to that than this as Lily posts on her blog...

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The Feisty Hairy Feminist Chats About Depression And Social Acceptance With Aspie Man

So a few weeks ago I spoke to one of my female modelling/cosplay actress friends. As respect for her she shall remain anon.

We were generally shooting the shit about things such as our struggles with being artists that happen to have mental illnesses. Then the conversation turned into this conversation about feminism, shaving and pop culture's obsession with perfection. I've asked her if this could be used to encourage and inspire other women and educate those against females who literally go through physical and mental pain just to be accepted by men and society.

 BSB = Me 

Anon = female friend

BSB: Who in society are you trying to impress? To be honest I like a woman with shaved legs but I wouldn't expect that everyday. Because yeah I like my girls feminine but I don't want her to feel she needs to impress me every day.

Anon: Some ladies see being with their partners as a excuse to not do anything pretty or feminine.
It just upsets me so much than in order to feel sexy and "presentable" to a guy for six hours I wind up feeling uncomfortable for a fortnight.
I came down to London to visit a bloke and shaved my legs on saturday morning. Last night he was having to raid his medicine cabinet for anaesthetic lotion because I'd scratched enough to draw blood.
Im sure I COULD cover up instead but when im still getting to know someone I dont yet feel comfortable saying "by the way, im a hairy girl. If you don't like that either dont take my stockings off or just dont shag me".
I know ultimately I probably will settle with a partner who loves me for my un pretty unfeminine self and subsequently I can indeed stop worrying but I still have needs in the meantime. And it hurts so much that I've got years of programming telling me im disgusting and ugly and need to go through this shit in order to feel worthy of affection.

BSB: Society telling me to do equally me being self employed. Nothing wrong thinking outside of the box.
Anywhere else you don't shave?

Anon: Anywhere else I'm SUPPOSED to??

BSB: That doesn't mean the vagina. I'm guessing arm pits?
The vagina isn't a big (no pun) deal for me because it reminds me of one of my first.

Anon: I have occasionally been asked to shave my bits but the pain after was vile. It felt like someone was sandpapering my clit for weeks after. Had to take antibiotics to fight infected sweat glands after a cyst developed. The fact that this is considered common practice or even "basic etiquette" makes me sick.
Underarms again I only shave if I have to but this summer I tried to be brave and bare them in their natural state.

BSB: That's understandable.
I remember you rt something about a woman shaving or lack of. This is something you seem passionate about.

Anon: It is. I was bullied for years for being "the hairy girl".
I was bullied too. Also for being different.

BSB: I actually hate being misunderstood as often as I am. It's the reason I quit Facebook.
Being different is always hard. Especially when conforming is presented as not only normal but also desireable.

Anon: All the popular media tells me not only that I SHOULD look a certain way but also that I shall FEEL better about myself if I do. Its a double edged sword. If I dont conform society tells me im a disgusting freak and if I DO my body tells me I'm a freak for not feeling all lovely and feminine for it the way all the other girls do. Women like me are castigated by everyone. We are unattractive, unhygenic even, politically dissident, lazy for not looking pretty for Teh Menz, rebellious or actively trying to repel men by being our naturally revolting selves. And if we point out how society tries to push us to conform then hordes of women crawl out of the woodwork to point out how they do it "for themselves" and "because they like it" and silence our experiences and suffering by telling us "nobody cares" what we do with our bodies.

My friend is touring as Amy Pond at Doctor Who Fan-cons.

 By the way, I mentioned this to someone else this week. Makes me angry (I saw it in an advert for an modelling reality TV show) when photographers call models fatties. You hired them. You booked them to be beautiful. Any women can be beautiful. Any women.

What do you think? Do you agree with her points?

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